So here is a list of 25 things you may or may not know about
UtterlyAbsurd Bella
Forgive me for all the pictures - but I am a very visual person! (that was a freebie fact about me! LOL)
1. I am a planner.
A pain in the ass, have to know all the details, write lists kind of planner. I had to know the gender of each of my kids because I had to plan ahead!
2. I am a Beatlemaniac.
(I flove these bitches!!!!!)
Some of you already know this, but it's worth repeating as being a Beatle fan has been a significant part of my life since I was 13. I went to Beatlefest (now called "The Fest for Beatles Fans") every year for like 20 years starting in 1982 - there was a lot of underage drinking and overage drinking over the years! Good times....good times.....
3. I do have some artistic ability.
I enjoy drawing and I wish I had time to take some art classes so I can tweak my skillls. I did take Art as a major in H.S. but I think I would benefit from more classes as an adult. I was even brave enough last week to open adeviantArt page. They may kick me out because I suck, but what the hell......
It's a running joke among my family and friends. One time I even cut in front of a pregnant lady at White Sox game! Anywhere I go, everyone asks me where the bathroom is.....because I would know! LOL
5. I used to work at Penthouse Magazine.
Yeah, I did. During college, I worked there part time as an office assistant. When I graduated, I got promoted to Office Manager where I worked until I found a teaching job. Now keep in mind, I worked at the Chicago Ad Sales office which is really not as exciting as it sounds. However I did get to meet the Julie Strain (the Penthouse Pet above) as well as my boss at the time - Penthouse owner, Bob Guccioni. I also saw my share of misdirected polaroids of chicks under the delusion that they could be a Penthouse pet. Those were always good for a laugh around the office.
6. In High School, I was a pom pon girl.
That's me.....second from your left.
7. I remember tiny details about everything.
I literally can pretty much look at any item in my house and remember where and when we bought it as well as any story that goes with the item. If it was a gift, I can tell you who gave it to me and for what occasion. Don't even get me started on Xmas ornaments for the tree - I know them all! Even the ones from students I had 15 years ago!!!! It's crazy!
8. I have been to 3 Wiggles concerts.
That's my youngest - Matt at age 3
Yes, I took these. And yes, I STILL think Anthony (blue Wiggle) is HOT!!!!
9. I got close enough to Paul McCartney to take pictures.
This is me and my BFF Jacki falling apart after he left!
10. I met INXS and the GoGo's in the same night
With Charlotte Caffey from the GoGo's - Belinda Carlisle was totally drunk and walked right passed us.
This was 1984 - and INXS opened for the GoGo's!
Me with Gary Beers - INXS
Me getting a kiss from Tim Farris - INXS
Getting Tim Farris's autograph
Michael Hutchence was totally wasted too and staggered passed us and into the hotel. :(
11. I love tap water as long as it's from Lake Michigan.
12. My sister Barb is my best friend.
Always has been.....always will be.
13. I grew up in an apartment above a hardware store on the Southwest side of Chicago.
This is the actual hardware store I lived above! I googled my old address on google images, and it came up! Back then it was an Ace Hardware.....and I hated living there.
14. I cut hair.
I am not trained in any way to cut hair - but my husband hasn't had anyone but me cut his hair in like 20 years.
I do the boys hair too.
15. I was a Girl Scout until I was in High School ( I really am a SUPERGEEK!)
I'm the 2nd on the left and my sister is 2nd from the right
If you read the FF "There Will Be Blood" -
this is my and my sis standing in front of Holy Name Catherdral.
16. I was named after my grandmother.
Luckily I was named after her middle name - her name was Eunice Marie. My mom always teases me that she wanted to name me Eunice!
17. Champagne makes me cry.
Every. Freakin. Time.
18. I saw Pope John Paul II
The Pope said a special mass at our church and I was one of the lucky Girl Scouts from my church to be chosen to attend the mass. It was a big deal back then.
19. I am a Harry Potter geek! Totally!
Before Twilight came along, I was happily reading and rereading my Harry Potter books, spending hours playing Harry Potter Trivia on Facebook.
(Now I'm even happier reading Twilight and even happier still reading FF!)
20. I HATE, I repeat HATE 3D movies.
Apparently these are 3D glasses for Harry Potter....won't be needing these!
Just give me good old fashioned 2-D - thank you very much.
Maybe it's because I have to put the 3D glasses over my real glasses - which I need to see the movie,
but it sucks.
21. I love to cook and bake and I am a Pampered Chef junkie!!!!
I seriously have almost everything pictured here!
22. I did not start driving until I was 25!
And this was my car....well not THE actual car
but it was brown and tan 82 Ford Fairmont.
My husband (well boyfriend at the time) bought it from
his grandfather to give to me as a Christmas present!
I guess I never really needed a car before when I lived in the city.
No a/c but at least it had FM radio! LOL
23. Teaching was not my first career choice
- it was Sound Engineering.
I went to Columbia College for 2 years after HS and majored in
Arts, Entertainment and Media Management - specializing in Sound Engineering.
Turns out, that was not a good career for me.....since I don't have a penis.
24. I love "The Office"!
I have to admit, the very first time I watched "The Office", my reaction was ....meh.
Then I gave it a second chance and now I flove this show!
It's like one of my favorite shows of all time.
I'm a comedy person....not so much drama. There's enough of that in RL.
25. My mom has a HUGE family!
She has 14 brothers and sisters - so I have a lot of Aunts, Uncles and Cousins.
This picture is from our last Family Reunion and it is just a fraction of my grandmother's grandchildren!
Don't even get me started on her great grand children!!!
The numbers are mind-boggling!
So there you have it - 25 things about me.
If you haven't had a chance to share some things about you
go ahead and tell us in the comments!
[credit goes to the creator of this pic - wasn't me ;)]
Welcome to week 19!
Are you keeping up tesoros?
Remember, if you went on ahead and finished the story,
we would still love to hear from you in the comments!
Ch. 54 - CPOV
Chapter 54 is from Carlisle's POV and we finally get to meet Alec. What are your first impressions of him? Carlisle describes his eyes as being so dark that you couldn't differentiate between the pupil and the iris. That make me think of a shark - a predator. Alec is scary as hell, but Carlisle is turning to him for help with the situation he finds himself in.
Carlisle is revealing everything he knows about Isabella to Alec, including that she is a principessa della mafia (mafia princess), that her mother Renee is actually named Bree and the daughter of Marcus and Didyme and Aro’s niece who was supposed to be dead.Whoever killed Bree’s parents sold her to Charles Sr. knowing full well who she was and he kept her as a slave. Carlisle’s concern right now is that if Aro finds out that he has been keeping this information fromhim, that he will be killed - which is confirmed by Alec.
Alec agrees to help Carlisle against his better judgement and makes it clear that he is only doing this to protect Esme.In agreeing to help Alec decides that their first order of business is to permanently silence the doctor who ran the DNA tests.Alec also recommends that Carlisle tell Edward everything so that he knows what he is up against.
In the chapter we also find Carlisle musing about how proud he is of Emmett and Jasper as they graduate from high school and that he feels like he's not a complete disappointment to Elizabeth's memory. This line of thinking leads him to panic about Edward's future. Edward is about to turn 18 and will soon choose the path his life will take. He is concerned that Aro will try to manipulate Edward (read between the lines - use Isabella) to get Edward to do what he wants.
The chapter then flashes back to one year after Elizabeth's death.
Aro has told Carlisle that Charles Swan had Elizabeth killed. Understandably angry, Carlisle gets into his car against Aro's orders and starts driving 26 hours straight through from Chicago to Phoenix to get his revenge.As he a approaches the Swan residence he comes across Charles Sr. and his wife driving along and Carlisle turns around and goes after them, causing them to crash and severely injuring them both. Carlisle proceeds to beat Charles Sr. to death and light his car on fire.Having nowhere else to go, Carlisle goes to the Swan home to clean up and tries to kill Isabella and would have killed her if his gun hadn’tfailed.That’s when Carlisle hit rock bottom. He realizes that he almost killed an innocent child. The child his wife sacrificed her life trying to save. In the end Aro gives Carlisle a pass and helps to cover his tracks, but continues to hold it over his head.
The chapter ends with Carlisle and Alec finishing their private discussion and then Alec greeting the family. Isabella is understandably nervous about meeting Alec but with a little whispered encouragement from Edward, she faces her fears. Edward introduces her as his girlfriend and she surprises everyone by holding her hand out to him to shake it and saying "It's a pleasure to meet you Alec". Are you wondering what Edward whispered in her ear? I love how Carlisle is watching how Edward and Bella are interacting with each other and it makes him smile!
What do you think? Is Carlisle softening, as Alec says? Is this a good thing?
Chapter 55 - EPOV
Chapter 55 begins with Bella meeting Alec from Edward's point of view. What Edward really wants to do is throw Bella over his shoulder and run away from the situation but he knows that Bella needs to face her fears. Instead he whispers to her to pretend that she is Harry Potter and that fucker over there is Voldemort and that his love for her will protect her the same way that Harry was always protected by his mother's love. (I'm a huge Harry Potter fan so I loved the reference!)
Don't you adore the banter between Edward and Esme? "That's not the only thing big about me, isn't that right, Bella?" Esme has a great sense of humor, but I'm sure Bella was totally embarrassed by Edward saying that! It's comforting to know that Esme is the one adult that is so accepting of Edward and Bella's relationship. She just accepts it without question or reservation.
When Edward sees that Bella is getting ready to make cannoli, he says "Holy shit, don't tell me you're making what I think you're making". This is one of the reasons I love Mafiaward! He just comes out and says stuff like that out of nowhere and makes me LMAO! Then he says, "Christ, just when I thought it wasn't possible to love you anymore than I do, you go and make fucking Cannoli from scratch" Edward just has a way with words, doesn't he?
"Food fuckers!" - again.....LOL!!!!
The family has a somewhat tense dinner, but Edward of course tries to soothe Isabella throughout. Everyone is impressed with the Cannoli and this leads to Emmett quoting "The Godfather" and then promising Izzy Bizzy a date with her to watch it. After dinner, Edward is summoned to his father's office where he is met with his father and Alec. After a brief commentary on Edward's lack of manners (and Isabella's possession of them despite being born in a barn literally), Alec comes right out and asks Edward if he is going to be initiated. After some stalling, Edward tells him no. Carlisle and Alec proceed to tell Edward everything about the DNA and who Bella is, but he pretty much had it all figured out anyway. Again, the possibility of Isabella being used to manipulate Edward to do what Aro wants comes up in the conversation.
On graduation day, the girls go up to Edward and Bella's room to get ready. Do you love how Edward is eye-fucking Bella when he sees her all dressed up for the graduation? And the subsequent "conversation" between Rosalie ("You're such a fucking pervert Cullen") and Edward ("Whatever, sleaze") Of course after seeing Bella looking so hot, Edward wants to fool around. Did anyone else think it was adorable that that Bella thought they would be able to tell? Yeah, blushing Bella would give their little secret away! LOL Then Bella gets a little eye-fuck in herself before Edward gets dressed for the graduation.
The graduation itself has a profound effect on Bella, particularly the speeches. They brought tears to her eyes. I can imagine what she must have been feeling, this being her first experience at such an event that can be filled with emotion. Afterwards Edward's brother's reveal to him that they figured out that it was Bella that their mother was trying to save. Bella has changed so much in time that she's been with them and Emmett proclaims that although their dad brought her there, Edward is the one who saved Isabella. He made her what she is today, by giving her the love that she needed. Edward tells his brothers that he does not want Bella to find out about their mom because it would crush her.
The evening ends with Edward and Bella making love and Bella surprising Edward by getting on top of him.(GO BELLA!!!) Edward starts speaking in Italian (makes me melt!!!) and says "Principessa mia ti amo tanto" which basically means "Princess I love you so much". Do you think Edward was telling Bella in way that he knows she won't understand? Or was it just passion talking?
Chapter 56 - BPOV
Edward's 18th Birthday. Bella gets out of bed and goes downstairs to bake Edward an Italian Cream Cake for his birthday and gets an unexpected visitor. Alec just watches her while she is making the cake and making her feel very uncomfortable. After skeeving her out for a while, Alec finally says good morning. Things continue to be awkward for Bella and then Carlisle comes in which is almost a relief (but not quite). Bella is mortified when she realizes that it is quite possible that Dr. Cullen and Esme were home last night and most likely heard her and Edward and has her fears basically confirmed when Carlisle says to go wake Edward up because he's probably not decent. Dr. Cullen seems really upset about the Italian Cream Cake that Bella is making for Edward. Why do you think that is?
The bad news is that Aro is coming to see Edward on his birthday. Dr. Cullen tells Bella that she needs to let Edward know that his Godfather is coming. Edward is not happy at all because he knows exactly why he is coming. While Edward is taking a shower, Bella writes him a little note and puts it in his winter coat pocket knowing that he won't be wearing that coat for a while and it will be a nice little surprise for him later on. This will come back later......that's all I can say.
Edward tells Bella that he is not only worried about Aro trying to get him to iniate but that he is also worried about how all this might affect Bella. Now that Edward knows the truth about Bella's ancestry he is seeing this situation with a new perspective. The meeting itself is strained. Edward is openly affectionate to Isabella which Aro finds surprising. The discussion turns to Edwards future plans and Aro is not pleased that the plans do not include Edward joining the organization. When asked what is to become of Isabella, Carlisle tells Aro that his is preparing her to be set free. Alec steps up to vouch for Isabella which basically means if Bella screws up in any way, Alec will pay for it with his life.
Just before Aro arrives, Esme has a heart to heart with Bella and tries to explain Alec to her and let her know that she thinks of Bella as family. Bella feels like Esme is being very motherly toward her which brings about feelings of guilt from Bella who is missing her own mother.
Bella heads up to bed early because she is overwhelmed with the stress from the day. When Edward joins her later on, she asks him if she will really be free. He says she will be free, but it won't be easy. He tells her she will be free to do anything she wants with her life including going to school, marrying him or leaving his ass. LOL Bella says she would never leave him, and he is glad to hear it, but assures her that his point is that she has a choice.
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So now that Edward is fully informed of Bella's lineage,
do you think he will continue to persist with his early pursuits of running away with Bella?
When I first heard about 100 Monkeys coming to play at House of Blues Chicago I had to tell my bloggy bestie right away and get her to go with me. We originally purchased balcony seats so we could sit through the show, but I had a gut feeling and I just wanted to try and get closer. So as the concert was approaching I found a VIP ticket for half price, I went for it. Why pass up the opportunity to see the sound check and get a cool gift! Little did I know they were going to let every person with a VIP ticket get their pic taken with the band and get a t-shirt and autographed pic of the band! So UtterlyAbsurdBella, hisbella, BellaTesoro, 17foreverlisa, MamaCougar, LilCougar and I all went to the show. We also met up with Lety!
LilCougar was taking the pic for us
Let's get to the good stuff!! I'm in line waiting to get my picture taken with the band, I'm trying really hard not to freak out! Lil Cougar was in line with me, after she got hers I walked up to them and I can't believe I said this.. "Hi boys!" God I'm a dork lol. So anywho after that small embarrassment I get all handsy with the band, okay really not but I did get to touch Jackson and Ben G... I also made sure to reach and touch Jerad aka Mohawtie and Ben J.
So while I'm standing there in the like 40 seconds it's gonna take to get my picture taken Ben G says to me "Want to trade shirts?" After the pic I look from his face to his shirt back to his face and say "Sure!" He laughed so I said "No really, I'll trade you right now." He says to me "No, my bark is worse than my bite." GAH!!! What is that supposed to mean??? I'd rather take the bite anyway ;)
Then as I'm walking away I tell them that if Uncle Larry can't make it because he's sick to tell him that we missed him at the show. Jackson says "Of course." Yep so I talked to him too. At least I kept my head and didn't say anything really stupid. Well Uncle Larry came through and played with the band even though he was sick! It just wouldn't have been the same without him, so I'm glad he was feeling well enough to preform.
Before the pictures Jackson, Jerad, Ben G and Ben J all sang .38 Special (my favorite!) after the pics there were three opening acts.
New Hallow
Tin Tin Can
Kissing Club
Then 100 Monkeys finally took the stage and they rocked the place!! Now I will let you bask in some of the pictures I took...
Singing .38 Special
Here are the "after the opening act" pics!
I think this was the best pic I took all night!
You can find the rest of my pics at my FB
and Photobucket the password for the album is Chicago
During the Thank You song, Jackson gets down and starts shaking hands/high fiving(real word?) the people in the front row... I. Was. One. Of. Them. He also leaned off the edge of the stage and grabbed my hand earlier in the night.. okay okay so I was the grabby one jeeze give a girl a break ;)
After the concert was over UtterlyAbsurdBella, hisbella, and I were in the lobby of HoB where Ben J was talking with some people and hugged a lady (seemed like she could have been family or something IDK) I calmly (sorta) walk up to him and ask for a pic. And that is how I ended my night!
PS: Don't forget to beg 17foreverlisa to tell her story! BellaTesoro too!!!
I really love to share things about myself. I don't care who you are I will tell you a ton of random stuff about myself, because I can. SnarkierThanYou did a post over at Twitarded where she told us 25 things about herself and encouraged people to do the same. And well since I take every opportunity to talk about myself, here goes...
1) I don't drink tap water. It smells like metal yuck!
2) I'm a very finicky eater, you'd think I would be much skinnier with the list of foods I won't eat.
3) The very first concert I ever went to was Hanson in 1998. I have the ticket stub and t-shirt to prove it :)
I'm too lazy to go put the shirt on and take a pic so you'll have to settle for this
4) I love rap music and even though the above admission might make you think differently I prefer rap over any other music.
5) My car was my grandpa's before he gave it to me, it's pink (okay so the title says sunrise red but it's sooo pink), I miss my grandpa :(
Me snuggling with my grandpa awww
6) I love to sing, but I'm not very good.
7) I played the clarinet for five years but quit before high school because I didn't want to be labeled a 'band geek'.
8) I have really poor eyesight, like really freaking bad and I refuse to wear glasses. I'll only wear contacts.
9) I watch more TV than is normal for one person but it's rapidly declining with the more FF I read.
10) I'm really handy when it comes to putting things together and I flove getting electronics hooked up.
11) I have really sensitive hearing and sense of smell, I chalk it up to my poor eyesight heightening the others.
12) I know lots of useless information but have a bad memory when it comes to learning.
13) Thirteen is my favorite number and no not because of Rob's b-day :)
14) I have a fear of bugs. It's so bad I get all shakey/panicky when they are near me.
15) Barq's Root Beer is like my own version of crack.
16) I don't like scary movies bc I have very vivid dreams and dream of what I see. That's why I like to read FF before bed, my imagination carries over ;)
17) I hate being out in nature. I'm a bit of a germaphobe and a bit OCD.
18) I'm really into sports. I love my Chicago teams. You won't catch me cheering for a team if they don't have the name Chicago Bears, Chicago Bulls, Chicago Blackhawks, Chicago White Sox and yes I even cheer on the Chicago Cubs (the things I'll do for my nephew *shakes head*)
19) I love wrestling; high school, college, professional... I love it all! I was also the book keeper for my high school's wrestling team, Go Mustangs! I did baseball and football too. I love my sports!
I took this pic of my fav wrestler CM Punk at my first show.
We had spectacular seats, 7th row!
20) I love to talk a lot and I'm kinda loud about it, well after we've been around each other for a bit, I'm usually really nervous meeting new people.
21) I love to dance but have never been clubbing, not my scene.
22) I'm a middle child, I have an older sister and younger brother and we all surprisingly like each other.
Shhh don't tell them I put this up here okay. They'd kill me :)
PS: Is that a Heineken I spy??
23) I'm am the godmother to two adorable children, Ryan and Annabella. Ryan just called me "My Kassie" the other day when talking to his Papa, I cried a bit :)
Me, Ryan and Anna
24) My favorite TV show is Burn Notice, it has been since the day it started and will be until long after the series is over. It's the only show I can watch the reruns a billion times and not get bored.
25) I love to bake; cookies, cake, muffins etc and make breakfast foods; pancakes, french toast, omelets but I'll only eat the baked goods.
Now if you feel like you've learned more than 25 things about me you'd probably be right I get a bit wordy when talking about myself. What are you waiting for? Tell me 25 things about yourself or 2 or 5 or 13 either in the comments or on your own blog. Everyone else is doing it TwiKiwi50, ChloeCougar, dangrdafne and LwE did it. Succumb to peer pressure!
Ciao tutti mia bella ragazza! I hope you are all enjoying summer so far. I remember last summer and the memory that lingers still is that of reading EP for the first time during hot and hazy days. This story just made them even steamier. So here’s hoping your reading keeps your body temperature hot no matter what it’s like outside. This first chapter is going to be a long review, but it needs to be. The other two will be shorter and sweeter. Tell me what you think, let it all out like Edward, just don’t smash any mirrors!
Chapter 51 EPOV
Of the three chapters this week, this one was the most significant. Edward’s been hit with another “thunder bolt” and this one is not the love at first sight kind. All of sudden everything is crystal clear. He knows the answer as to who or what got his mother shot, it was Isabella. He’s so confused and angry he locks himself away in his room because he doesn’t trust himself to not let loose and we all know how dangerous Edward can be when he gets angry. He’s feeling so many emotions:”horror, shock, love, longing, gratitude, anger, disgust, awe, remorse, contempt, and hatred.” and he doesn’t know who to blame it on. He’s mad at his mother, but wonders how he could be when he’s doing the same thing she is, sacrificing to protect Bella. He shifts blame to Carlisle, but realizes that he too has been trying to protect them all, failing and feeling helpless and guilty for not doing enough. The worse blame goes to Bella, he’s disgusted that instinctively he feels she’s to blame for all the years he’s spent broken. He now feels like being with Bella is tainting his mother’s memory, it’s as if he’s been sleeping with the enemy.
He feels so out of control, asking what kind of God would shatter his world to begin with by killing his mother and now to have the one person to have put him back together be the one that caused him to be the closed broken person he is. Edward talks himself down from hating Bella, he knows she was just a child with no free will, and he feels sick for shifting the blame on to her. He realizes his mother knew what she was doing, she knew his father’s lifestyle could get her killed, yet needed to save this little lost girl anyway. And so he’s back to blaming Carlisle’s lifestyle as what killed his mother. He feels he’s to blame for them living with violence, hate, bloodshed. “If he hadn’t joined the fucking mafia she’d still be alive today.” But she knew what she was marrying into and he wonders how she and Esme could stay with husbands and love them knowing they killed people. It’s funny, I asked Khar about this, I had wanted her to release Edward from that life so he could be happy. What she replied back to me made me cry and of course she was right. She said that everyone of them, everyone of us, makes choices, freely, even Bella, and it’s about finding happiness even within a not so nice place because you want to, need to. And so Edward is on his way to learning this lesson and doesn’t he just do the same dam thing. He claims he will never do what his father did, put Isabella in the position his mother was in, no way he would end up like his father. You believe him?
He’s so overpowered with these emotions, he wants to hurt someone. Sound familiar?
He looks through his stash of drugs, Grey Goose, looking for something to numb his pain. Yeah, Edward is raw and his usual way to deal is not to deal and just wants to check out for awhile.
He notices his mother’s picture, broken and splattered with Bella’s blood and thinks maybe his father was right, he didn’t see his mother clearly, he really didn’t know her at all. He remembers Bella again and how she’s been paying for something she never had control over, just like him. There’s this old song, Wild Fire that describe that beautifully
Edward looks in the mirror and sees his mother’s features reflected back at him and he loses it. He punches the mirror again and again until he realizes he’s damaged his fist. This scene is so filled with his anguish, the reader really goes there with Edward as he just lets all the pain out and cries years of repressed grief. He doesn’t care anymore about appearances or pushing people away, hurting people because he was hurting and he didn’t care about revenge or blame at the moment, none of that would bring back his mother or make this situation go away.
He starts to feel badly for not thinking of Isabella, he’s so wrapped up in himself, he knows he needs to get his act together before he can deal with her.
Edward goes in to his father, sees him on computer and now second guesses whether Emmett changing the GPS codes was a good idea after all. You think?
Carlisle tells him he didn’t want to tell him because he felt it would be cruel to ruin his happy. He starts telling his son how Elizabeth asked him to save Bella. He called Charles Sr but he refused to sell her. He thought his wife would drop it once she realized how dangerous it would be for her to try. She seemed obsessed, started taking money from the account, much like you’re doing, he tells Edward. He figured she was just helping someone, he trusted her. Edward is surprised how similar their stories are. He’s being just as reckless as his mother had been. He shares with Edward how the Borgata keep records and DNA samples of every inducted member. The night Carlisle was going to confront Elizabeth about how deeply she was delving into this secret, was the night she was killed. He wasn’t in time. Edward realizes now that his father is afraid that if Edward keeps searching about Bella’s lineage he could get himself killed too and that’s what Carlisle has been trying to get him to stop doing. Edward asks if his mother ever found out about who Bella really was, Carlisle thinks not, they killed her because they were afraid she would find out. Charles just didn’t want anyone to know where they had gotten Isabella’s mother from. It was never about Bella it was about her mother. Edward says “Of course it’s not her fault...no more than mine..we couldn’t help what you fucking adults did that got us wrapped up in this bullshit.” Carlisle admits he used Bella as a pazzo a pushover, someone easy to victimized. Just like Edward, Carlisle said it hurt that his wife loved someone else so much that she’d risk everything for them, same feelings Edward is struggling with. He admits it’s not rational to feel like that. He says he’s come to grips with those emotions, most of the time, that’s why he thought it was safe to bring Bella there.
He tells him that Charles Sr was probably afraid Elizabeth would find out and in his world it’s kill or be killed and Edward says I’m done with your world. Carlisle looks at Edward’s hand and determines he’s messed it up and needs a cast, he also tells him he drinks too much. How about the drugs Carlisle that you so readily have available for your teen son too?
At one point Edward remembers his mother’s saying “In life, nothing ventured, nothing gained.” and concludes that’s why she went out on a limb to save Bella, even though she could have just lived a fairly easy life, she felt the risk was worth it to save this little girl. There’s more to why Elizabeth wants to help Bella, more on that later... And that’s just how he feels about Bella she’s worth the sacrifice.
He tells his father he doesn’t want Bella to know that his mother died because of her, given what she knows about Edward’s pain, she would feel awful. Do you think they give Bella enough credit? Edward thinks that for once father and son finally understand each other.
Although Edward needs some time alone, to think, when he hears Bella whimpering in her sleep he instinctually shuts off his anger toward her. Watching her sleeping he feels his chest start to hurt again and he compares it to the mirror shattering in a million pieces caving under the pressure. He felt like he was breaking apart like that mirror. He thinks that his mother wasn’t selfish at all, she was selfless and here that poor girl still needs saving and he’s just thinking about himself, his pain. He decides that no one will every hurt her, he’s going to protect her not only because he loves her so much but because his mother did too. He wasn’t going to let his mother’s death be in vain. He wasn’t sleeping with the enemy like he first felt, he was “finding a safe haven with the innocent.” He’s determined more than ever, no matter what cost, to free her. He gets in bed with her feels he’s home, she’s his happiness and no matter how hard it will be to overcome all this pain, she is worth it. They’d lost enough in life, he loved her, they both deserved to be happy together. He vowed to be there for her till he took his last breath.
While holding on to Isabella and she just letting him be, Edward drifts into a dream, he remembers little Bella, him asking her if she wants a kiss and she kisses him and like most little boys he’s grossed out because he was offering her a chocolate kiss. He remembers her kissing him, offering her chocolate, his mother calling her Bella and he sees the love between the two of them. He just felt it was all just meant to be. He’s going to try hard at keeping his anger away from her, he knew he had to protect her, even if it was from him.
Chapter 52 BPOV
Bella at this point is left wondering why Edward had a such a melt down resulting in him breaking his wrist and fingers. He’s been miserable ever since and can’t drive his stick shift shiny volvo, He loves that car. Anyway she’s rather surprised to find that they go out and buy another car, a convertible Audi that looks like his volvo. He gets insulted that she can’t see the difference. boys and their toys. They bought it for Bella, it was Carlisle’s idea, She starts to panic at the thought of driving and doing the marketing on her own. She’s overwhelmed that they’d give her such freedom, she’s both afraid yet excited. Carlisle gives her a credit card and she’s expected to start being independent. She’s scared and even had a panic attack the first time out alone, and Edward had to talk her down from it. After she accomplishes it, she feels pretty proud of herself.
It’s been four weeks since Edward’s melt down and she’s confused by his up and down behavior toward her. Obviously it’s Edward trying to work through his anger and pain.
She senses that something is wrong, something she’s missing but she doesn’t know what that is. She’s trying to help Edward through this and she’s knows he’s feeling happiness but with some sadness attached to it.
Edward informs Bella that she needs to go buy a dress for Prom. She’s got mixed feelings about going to Prom. She doesn’t know how to dance and she’s afraid she will embarrass them both.
She goes to Alice’s and along with Rosalie they get ready.They tell her how much this means, him taking her in public and everyone being envious of her.
Edward has been trying to get Bella to step out of her comfort zone and asks her to stop by the market to buy some Coke for him. While there she meets Jacob. Don’t you always sense doom and gloom whenever Jacob appears? He’s really interested in Bella and she’s as confused as we are as to why. She doesn’t trust him, because of the history he’s had with Edward.
How did you like that greeting Edward gave her when she returned from picking up what he asked for “What fucking took you so long?” Yeah, Edward is having those mood swings giving poor Bella whip lash. And so she doesn’t tell him about meeting Jacob. Think this was a good idea?
So, were you like me and pictured Twilight Edward at Prom, with the black suit, laid back and then of course his Nike’s that matched the outfit? Ironic, right, that in this Prom scene, it’s Edward with a cast on, while in Twilight it’s Bella. Ahhh, shucks didn’t you just melt when he grabbed Bella’s wrist to tell her.”La mia bella ragazza...You are breathtaking.” He hasn’t been intimate much since his melt down and Bella’s a little hurt by this. I’m wondering if seeing her all breathtaking will change his hormonal self...
Prom
This is a little video I put together so you could listen to the song Edward requests at Prom. The first part of the video has 18th Floor but as Edward said, that song was only for their private use and doesn't request that for the dance. Watch it all as the song comes later in the gazebo scene. Please excuse my FIRST attempt at this!
How about that necklace? Charms, and gold two of my favorite things! And then Emmett teases Izzy Bizzy, his little sis about how beautiful she looks.
Edward’s pretty up tight about going to this Prom. And how about drinking and driving? There’s something up with Edward tonight, and he’s taking it out on Bella.
Rosalie and Edward start going at it in the restaurant and Emmett has to call Edward out on his ass for the way he’s been behaving. Edward doesn’t realize he’s been acting like “the old” him and Emmett says he doesn’t want to see the Pre-Bella Edward again. He warns Edward not to hurt Bella and reminds him that Bella deserves better than the way he’s been treating her lately.
Edward apologizes to Bella after Emmett’s talking down, he asks if they could start over and he says he knows he doesn’t always act the way he should but that he’s so thankful she’s in his life. How about Alice giving it to Edward for wearing Nike’s to prom as it is disrespecting Bella? But that’s not his intention, he just loves his Nike’s and Bella totally likes his Nike’s too
So Bella gets to experience a normal right of passage, Prom. She’s mesmerized by how pretty the room is and how everyone seems to look up to Edward. How about that dance? Bella in front and Edward swaying her. Rosalie had been right when she told Bella that tonight was special, tonight Edward was “coming out” showing he in fact was a taken man. Bella was the love of his life and he wanted everyone to know it. Then there’s the incident when the skanky Lauren and Tanya. It must of hurt to hear them say she was just a live in whore that any teenage boy would love. Then Bella gets real pissed, remembering she doesn’t have to put up with being spoken to like that anymore, when Tanya goes to smack her and Jacob comes to her rescue. I liked the “Whoa, Laila Ali, ..watch where you’re swinging that thing.” and Bella knows who she is but the other skanks don’t. Then Tanya rips the necklace off Bella and Rosalie steps in, love badass Rosalie! No one messes with Her Family, or she’ll “cut a bitch!” Jacob tells Bella he knows about her being a slave, he also knows that he can’t help her without losing his own life, but that he doesn’t believe Edward loves her, he thinks she’s being taken advantage of, he tells Bella he knows all of Edward’s tricks to make a girl fall for him. Jacob seems to really care, he thinks she’s in need of a friend. When Edward finds out what Tanya did, he says he won’t lay a finger on her but she will pay for what she did to Bella.
Did you like Edward’s little James Bond car sex? Yeah, I think renting that Vanquish helped Edward fulfill his fantasy of getting Bella off while driving. Playful Edward is hot, yes? He gets her home and “does her right,” instead of fast and quick like all the other teens.
Well he does manage to do her right, he says he’s sorry that he’s been holding back, and to not take it personal, and to please not give up on him. This line did me in, “I know I’m a pain in the ass but I need you to keep me afloat. You’re the only good thing I’ve got.” Bella decides she should come clean too, she thinks she’s been holding back as well and just wants to be honest. She tells him that, “Jacob Black knows.” Dum, de dum dum....
Chapter 53 EPOV
Edward feels like a complete failure. He feels like such a fuck up, can’t focus on school, and treating Bella horribly. Everyone talks to Edward and like short stuff, tells him, “Fix it.”
Edward’s POV is always interesting. He explains how he couldn’t keep his hands off Bella on the ride home and the old Edward would have just pulled over and taken her on the hood of the car, but the new man that loved her needed to take her home in the “sanctuary of our room and do right by her.” I love that room. Don’t you wish you had an Edward at home with you when you were their age? Nice, right?
Back to Edward, he wanted to show her his passion, remind her of the real him and makes love to his Isabella, slow, hard and so Edward good....
And then he had to deal with the Jacob reveal. He goes ape shit, telling Bella not to trust him, and he’s so upset to find out how many times she’s talked to him already. He can’t believe she’s hidden that from him but he’s been hiding his own secrets too.
Edward tells Bella she can’t be friends with Jacob, that he’s just trying to use her to get back at Edward. I don’t know about you, but I didn’t know who was right here. I think that Khar wanted the reader to question if Edward was seeing Jacob clearly and vice versa. Who did you believe at this point?
Carlisle keeps offering to separate B/E but Edward is adamant that , “I wasn’t fucking walking away from her, I may have withdrawn emotionally a bit ...There is no way I’d survive a physical separation, the emotional one was fucking with me enough.” Hummmm......aim arrow right at my heart.
I loved the part where Carlisle notices that Edward calls Isabella, Bella. He mentions that Elizabeth called her Bella bambina and Edward says La mia bella ragazza and Carlisle is in awe at how alike Edward and Elizabeth are. Edward likes the idea that he’s taking after his mother again, thinking he’d lost that part of himself when she died.
Another arrow to my heart was when Emmett says, if there ever comes a day when you don’t love Izzy Bizzy and you need to leave her for any reason, come to me and Jasper and we’ll find a way to help her, and he reminds him that if he hurts her, he’d hurt Edward. Love that big bear! Edward was happy that Bella had people like that who loved her.
Edward bumps into Bella and notices she has on his PJ’s and he says that she looks sexy in his clothes, but how about we go back in the room and take all of them back off...told you, I love Edward and that room! And how cute the rant about mixed signals, tesoro...”Is that a “fuck off or a fuck me?” When he asks her if she wants to spend the day in bed and she says no, but means yes and sweet little Bella whispers “Fuck me,” which gets Edward’s vulgar hormonal side ready to go and he does her right once again....and when he whispers in Italian his deep feelings for her, well, you know how that felt.
After they make love, Edward looks at her scarred back and thinks she is beautiful and strong because of how she got them and he vows to make her life better. How about when he traces the word FREE on her body with his finger?
His revengeful plan for Tanya and Lauren is perfect. He wanted pay back for hurting his bella ragazza. Priceless how he has Ben set up the slide show of the girls going down on each other for the whole school to see. Yeah, I agree with Edward, “What goes around comes around. Payback is a bitch.”
So everyone tell me what you thought. Did you hate/love Edward? Carlisle? Jacob?
Next week is Chapters 54-56. Happy McSteamy EP summer reading!
Don't even get me started on her great grand children!!!
